Chapter 2, Part 2

Anyways, till this day I still am improving as a student. I'm making my own choices academically. I figured to balance my schedule that fits my lifestyle the best. I don't listen to people who are retarded, and want to scam my education money. Now I can keep going towards my goal as a Dental Hygienist, without the fuss and bullshit.
Another aspect of my mental health is that besides from the school work, I've had to deal with other things that were going through my head, and that I had to worry about. If you don't know me well, I am a type of person who evaluates my self and the world around me constantly. I don't usually look at one aspect of something, but I tend to think of everything working in little pieces that build up to a bigger picture. So I piece together my school work, exploring my options for women, finding jobs, paying my rent, trying to volunteer, and trying to please people. During my last 3 years in college, these ideas and thoughts in my head have increased 10 fold. I felt like I always had to be on top of things. I had to balance so much shit out, that it basically made me go into an emotionally depressed state. But I think it is the best for me that all this shit is making me stressed out. I think it is building tolerance for future problems and helping me figure out how to cope with dilemmas.

With my physical state in mind, I've had my ups and downs. In the past couple years, I finally decided to try to get my self into shape. not just for the looks, but mainly for the feeling of being healthy and just keeping my self from getting sick. To this day I am still having a hard time being consistent in going to the gym. I have spurts of going for a few weeks, and then taking a month off. If I can finally get my self to go often, it would be my ultimate fitness goals. I think the biggest problem for my self is finding someone to go with, along with the fact that sometimes I push my self so hard that I get exhausted and overdue my workouts. So I think I just need to slow my pace and just even time out in my schedule. My goals from now on is to make my self a 3-4 day a week schedule and stick with it. and add in a new sport for me to let me have fun and get some exercise in.