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Things I want the most this year, to enter dental hygiene school, and find a girl. thats all folks. You can't even describe how much I want to achieve this, More than anyone on earth. I guarentee you that when i apply I am the most dedicated and hard work. To be honest my path has been a wild ride, but Honestly I just want to suceed, make my parents happy, family proud, make my self happy, and show that I work to maximum potential for more than monetary reasons. I wish my self the best luck and hope you do too.

Girls, Girls, Girls, part 2

After writing my first blog on my relationship with the ladies, I forgot to add the second part of the equation. I was thinking about how I blame my self for most of my mistakes. I still hold my self accountable, but I think it isn’t 100 percent my fault. I think another problem is that girls don’t really give me a chance. I usually try to start off slow, and just ask people to do casual things, such as go for lunch, hang out, study, or whatever activity that is used to break the ice and give my self a good first impression. Only about 25% of the time, I get a response back. It could be the fact that, the person is a self inflated dumbass, snobby, stuck up, not interested, or just being lazy. It could be a combination. Its happened many times. Yeah it feels like shit, but it also gives me the fire to keep going, and to improve my self and attain higher goals. It gives me motivation to try to prove that person, although most of the time, they don’t know or care. But It’s funny how some people have totally flaked out on me, or changed their minds when I ask them to do something, and to make it seem like your interested, that is just a plain bitch move. Sorry about using the language, but its just me expressing how I feel about it. But shit that’s all I have to say about that.

MMA

So In the last year of so, I’ve grown to love this new up and coming sport of Mixed Martial Arts. As I kid, and most of my high school and college years, I thought MMA to be a brutal and inhumane sport. I’ve ignored it largely to that I had only paid attention to my other favorite sports (Basketball, Tennis, and Motorsports.)I always thought of it was two men wildly kicking, punching, and laying on the ground hugging. But after being exposed to it by reading forums, watching it on TV, and doing my own research, the sport it self is something that can be only enjoy by being exposed to large amounts of it and being open to new things.
The sport in America, is marketed incorrectly. Everyone laughs at it, and people from other major sports think of it as a joke. I can’t really blame people that much though, because If you watch spike TV or the Versus channel, they almost market MMA as “Hardcore, and Bloody”. Also society compares MMA to boxing, which is ridiculous. It’s not even remotely the same sport. It is like comparing baseball and cricket. Yes there are two teams, using a wooden stick to hit a ball. But in Baseball the bat is tapered, in cricket the bat is a flat surface. The balls are of different size, the rules and style of play are totally different. It just doesn’t make sense to compare these two types of combat sports. In America there is one main branch of MMA, which is the Ultimate Fighting Championship. Yes I think it is a great organization, but it is lead by a man who wants ONLY the UFC to succeed. They even made sure of this by buying the world dominating, but slowly dying PRIDE FC, which is based in Japan. Pride FC was the most dominant MMA organization in the world. They had the best shows production wise, the best rules, drama, technical skills, and charisma of the fighters. Sadly the Yakuza was becoming a part of the company, and the Japanese media did not tolerate that, so they shut down their TV deal, which resulted in lower ratings and the lack of constant revenue.
People in the United States think that MMA is “Ultimate Fighting.” What people don’t know is that MMA started of as a sport that was styles against styles. For example a man from a Kyokushin Karate dojo wanted to see how he would deal with a collegiate wrestler, Kung fu practioner or a Muay Thai Boxer. But things have changed. People are now cross training in many different disciplines. People start off with a striking art, such as boxing, kickboxing, Savate, karate. And complimenting it with a grappling/ground game, such as western wrestling, judo, Sambo, Brazillian Ju-Jitsu and many other forms. They use it so that if a match decides to get to the ground or stood up, they have many options to show their arsenal of assault. Fighters can win through TKO, KO, or Submissions.
What I love about MMA the most is that people from all over the world, and of all ages can enjoy this sport. In football, cricket, hockey and other regionalized sports, the sports do not translate well over the globe. People aren’t exposed to it in their culture. But in mixed martial arts, people all over the world know what fighting is. People from Brazil, Japan, the US, Russia, France, Thailand, South Africa and other countries all can understand it. You could even say its sort of like a Universal Language.
Overall MMA is a great sport. Rules are making it much safer, and the athletes are training at a high level that bring great fights. The dynamics of grappling and striking make it very exciting. At any minute a person could be knocked out or caught in submission and it could be over. But anyways I could probably keep writing most likely write a 10 page report about MMA, but I would like to keep it short. Maybe ill write another in the near future. I hope people who read this blog start watching some MMA, this July, especially FEDOR vs SYLVIA, which is epic.

Blazers Blogs

What inspired me to write blogs were my friends blogs, and MY Portland trailblazers. heres some links to their blogs

Channing Frye- http://www.channingfrye.com/blog/

Greg Oden- http://www.yardbarker.com/users/gregoden

Brandon Roy (not really a blog, but some updates on him) -http://www.broy7.com/roy/index

Girls, Girls, Girls

Today on my mind is the topic of girls, or more PC, women. Basically its a topic, that even though sounds the same, I will express some of my personal experience on them.

So in the past few, I basically haven't had any luck with them. ZIP, NOTTA. Sounds sad doesn't it? I even set my self a goal in college, which was to maybe find a lady for my self. Apart from meeting new friends, learning and having fun, maybe finding my self a self a girl wasn't such a bad idea. I mean where else better than college right?

Yeah so after 3 years of some trying, nothing really worked. Why, you might be thinking? Mostly I think its on my part. Shit I'm a 21 year old, and im still shy as a mother F. Thinking back, honestly I think I could of found my self one, but due to my lack of ice breakers and iniating something, I fucked up. The women I meet are from all over the place; class, the library, my house, going out to the bars, walking around, activties, you name it. But somehow It just doesn't work out. I've pinpointed the problem to my self. Yeah, maybe my physical shape isn't the best of everything, but I'm still working on that. But I realize, fucking up on this part of my life isnt so bad yet. I mean if I was 30 years old still doing this shit, I would have to re-evaluate on what I have to do.

Let me give you some examples, I met this really great looking girl in class once. I knew something might be going right, if shes constanly asking me to hang out/study. But you know what? MY LACK OF BULLOCKS, really fucked me up. Everytime we met or hung out, I didn't do jack shit. In basketball terms, I couldnt advance the ball pass half court. I was just a sitting duck. Then she basically lost interest and now were just friends. Friends is fine, but sometimes its just not the best of what can happen out of a situation. And now that I'm leaving OSU behind, I think that my chances of finding one has gone down substantially. But, life isnt TOO short, so I will keep trying, and I'm not going to complain because I don't to sound emo, and I can always get my self on track.

Being chicken shit isn't just being me being scared. It has to do with my level of confidence. I think my biggest fear is rejection. Me being rejected from something is worst than my fear of death, being stabbed, or even a bear attacking me. So I think I should just free up my mind and take a stab at it harder from now on.

So, after summer school, I think I might take a few vacations, and relax my self, maybe that time off will help me recooperate some of my social skills. Heck, when and If I go to Canada this summer, something may happen! ha.

Peace,
Kent

Music

Music, HAH, some of my favorite things to do on my spare time, study time, driving, you name it. Honestly it can be ANY kind of music. EXCEPT FOR ONE, COUNTRY music. that shit is just plain annoying. I mean how uneducated can you sound! lol

Anyways im just saying how music is a huge part of my life. If you are around me you know i'll always have something on, whether its some sports radio, rap, rock and the list goes on. It just depends on what mood I am in. If im dancing i want some hip hop, and most the time its the garbage that gets played on the mainstream radio. I guess its a guilty pleasure. Then if im in an angry mood, I play my Gangster Rap, or some nice agressive rock. but basically i listen to what i suit for my mood

MEAL BUX

WOOOO i got meal bucks for this summer. free food for me. lol

Chapter 2, Part 2

Anyways, till this day I still am improving as a student. I'm making my own choices academically. I figured to balance my schedule that fits my lifestyle the best. I don't listen to people who are retarded, and want to scam my education money. Now I can keep going towards my goal as a Dental Hygienist, without the fuss and bullshit.
Another aspect of my mental health is that besides from the school work, I've had to deal with other things that were going through my head, and that I had to worry about. If you don't know me well, I am a type of person who evaluates my self and the world around me constantly. I don't usually look at one aspect of something, but I tend to think of everything working in little pieces that build up to a bigger picture. So I piece together my school work, exploring my options for women, finding jobs, paying my rent, trying to volunteer, and trying to please people. During my last 3 years in college, these ideas and thoughts in my head have increased 10 fold. I felt like I always had to be on top of things. I had to balance so much shit out, that it basically made me go into an emotionally depressed state. But I think it is the best for me that all this shit is making me stressed out. I think it is building tolerance for future problems and helping me figure out how to cope with dilemmas.

With my physical state in mind, I've had my ups and downs. In the past couple years, I finally decided to try to get my self into shape. not just for the looks, but mainly for the feeling of being healthy and just keeping my self from getting sick. To this day I am still having a hard time being consistent in going to the gym. I have spurts of going for a few weeks, and then taking a month off. If I can finally get my self to go often, it would be my ultimate fitness goals. I think the biggest problem for my self is finding someone to go with, along with the fact that sometimes I push my self so hard that I get exhausted and overdue my workouts. So I think I just need to slow my pace and just even time out in my schedule. My goals from now on is to make my self a 3-4 day a week schedule and stick with it. and add in a new sport for me to let me have fun and get some exercise in.

End of an Era (Chapter 1 and 2)

So, Basically I have 1 session of summer school left. My times at Oregon State University are done. Yeah I'm happy and sad at the same time. I've evaluated my times in Corvallis and I am glad I made my choice to spend 3 years of my life. I have also been exposed to the dirty, grimy side of the world. In my younger days, I thought living in the United States would be such a glorious place with people being happy all over. But that is 100 percent not true. Learning through classes, the world wide web, articles, books I realized the world is at one of its worst states in the history of mankind. The problem of poverty, exploitation, and uneven distribution of power in the world is terrible. Individually I can't do much, but by spreading the world people in numbers can do something. Throughout the three years I've learned to grow as an individual. My mind has received so much mental stress that I have learned to cope with things that I thought were not possible. I've learned to be more independent by taking care of my self, living on my own, and basically acting as an adult. I have also gained so many friendships that I thought were never possible in my life. In Corvallis you would think it wouldn't be that diverse, but in reality you meet people from all over the country, world and people that are generally great people. I've attended events, participated in events, and done things that I have never experienced before. Events such as parties, clubs, strip shows, drag shows, sports events, cultural events, dances, and the list goes on. Even my culinary taste has grown through my experiences. I have different takes on life now because I have seen how other people act, and their feelings towards certain politcal views, likes, dislikes, money, attitudes, manners, and more. Although I won't be in Corvallis anymore, it won't be the end of good things to come. I will strive to continue on exploring the new things out in life. Throughout the next few parts of these blogs, which will be in chapters, I will go through with you on my journey and how I feel about certain things.

Chapter I
Anyways on to the details. In Corvallis I've met people from Taiwan, Japan, Saudi Arabia, Congo, India, Lebanon, Portland, Beaverton, Gresham, Roseburg, St. Louis, Los Angeles, Miami and the list goes on. To be honest I think that If I went to college in this town, I most likely would of never met these great people. Its opened my eyes to the different ethnicities, social groups, social classes, and the stratum of people inside and outside of our world. Back in my high school days, the only people I hung out with were people who resided in South East Portland. Which basically meant the same type of people, mainly caucasians and some asian people that I met through friends. I didn't even realize there were people of different classes, or races. I was basically living in a narrow world. I've grown as a person by meeting so many people. I have friends who are well off, friends who are barely making the minimum to stay in school, and friends who sit in the middle class.
Meeting people and friends are not the only things I have learned about people. I have learned that In college there are so many types of people. There are the jocks who play sports for the school. There are the redneck/blue collar people who are either engineers or are in the forestry department, There are the medical field professional types, The lazy greek life type person, and the business/liberal art majors types. It is amazing on how some of these people got to college. Especially the greek type people. All they do is party, try to get girls and act like douche bags when their drunk. Either their parents are dumb that they are still in college, or they drop out of school after a few terms of partying. It makes me sick that these people are even here. Wasting their financial aid, by acting like a fucking retard. Then there are the redneck cowboy types rolling around in Corvallis. Although I don't like them and tend to have very few friends of them. I can sort of understand why they act, behave and have their own lifestyle. They were raised this way and I guess their narrow view on life is due to their upbringing. They all have important roles in society, such as farmers. Without them, I wouldn't have any groceries to be buying. But then again, the most annoying this is when they act racist, or bring their stupid right wing political views and try to spread that shit like a wild fire. But hey, everyone isn't perfect and those type of people tend to not change, I could care less about them. Moving on there is the rich class of students. These people are either rich through excess financial aid, or parents who spoil the shit out of them. They tend to have nice ass houses with Plasma TV's. PS3's, The most expensive and unnecessary clothing. But I have nothing against them, since they are just doing what they are needing to be happy. Which is sadly, materialism and unfathomable amounts of wealth. Then of course there are the normal middle class folks, who went to high school, graduated and are paying their own financial aid, or received grants. They are in school just trying to get good grades or passing grades to receive a degree and hopefully advance their careers after the world of college. Then there are the students who are the working poor. They are strong willed individuals who are trying hard in school to make a better life, but they are working their hardest just trying to pay for their tuition (I will write another blog about the dilemma on tuition rates), rent, food, and other expenditures. I truly admire these people and wish them well in life.

Chapter II
Another aspect of my college years is that I have experienced a lot of things that helped me expand my physical and mental states. In high school I was one of the top students. Even though I wasn't the most studious person. It just happend that I turned in my homework, went to class everyday, and was liked by most of the teachers. When I arrived at Oregon State I was like "oh wow, I don't have class attendance, I don't have too much homework, and the lectures are only 50 minutes long, instead of the 1 hour and 30 minutes that are in high school. For a moment it gave me a feeling of freedom, but the negative side is that it made me slack. For the first time I received an F grade on a class I took. I was shocked, but then again I just went on. I was glad that there were no such things as report cards anymore, because my parents would of yelled at me for days. From there on I just kept on taking classes, and slowly my grades came up, but there were also the ups and downs. The biggest down of my life was when my grandma passed away. She was, and still is a huge part of my life, and inspiration for me to succeed. It was during a midterm week in October, and my family gave me call in the middle of the night, and told me the bad news. And to keep it short (I could write a whole blog on this later), I wasn't in a healthy mental state for a few weeks. It was so hard coping with the horrible situation. And my grades followed suit. After a month or so. After this I have to give my self an evaluation and continue on with my life. Classes were still just as hard, because the advisers are not the brightest people at the University. They packed in so many classes, and basically try to torture me with a tough schedule. After a while I realized I will limit my meetings with them and make up my own schedules, that I did my own research on......................(TO BE CONTINUED)

BLOGS

So, this is my new blog, I haven't made one of these since my days of Xanga. I'll be here to put my views of how I am feeling, what I think about recent events, or just to update you on whats new with me.

Later,
Kent